not realli in a good mood now... all tt optimism i have fades once... i get into a bad mood... realli tiring. it's only abt 6 mths since i've knew u. not tt long, neither is it short. it was off to a good start, nothing much, but at least there was something established. i may seem quiet at times, i might not look you in the eye, coz i'm juz shy. i dun normally look girls in the eye, coz yeah. same reason. now it seems like... nothing's there anymore. like u only look for me when ur bored, when ur frens aren't around to keep u company or something. maybe pple are right. i may look like a gangster, i may have earrings. i may have a little double standards when it comes to girls. so? it doesn't make me less of a man than other guys. and juz becoz i'm not of a certain standard, i can be discounted? and the words you say, cut me so deep. like u're only using me for entertainment. i don't feel good when i tink of it. it sucks, and i dun feel like writing abt it anymore. fuck it. i'm outta here.

legendary_slacker was haunted by memories on 11/10/2004 04:30:00 am.