well. i'm mentally unsound. depression seems to be the order of the day for me. somehow i tink its related to my smoking habit. should realli stop this f**king bad habt. can't seem though... no one's realli supporting me... esp her.. she said she would... well...


then again, i haven been obvious in anything. its juz tt people make wild guesses and then ask me abt it, then presume that wad they think is rite. well... its up to them to distort the facts...
can't really be bothered. to those who know. please stop spreading rumours... i'm not interested in esther goh or kym ng... pls stop saying tt i am. its really not nice to spread such rumours... i'm getting tired of it. life is so short. best be that we make full use of it for God's glory. it may seem hyprocritical that i'm saying this since i'm not a regular at church at all and that many people in church seem to think that i'm a perversion of all that Jesus preaches...


well... pessimism isn't good though. i used to be optimistic till my life took a turn for the worse ever since sec2... people didn't trust me as they did before. my life's fictitious events started to spread by word of mouth, tarnishing my image before those whom i respected, causing them to see me in a different way. always looking at me as though i was a parasite. wish i'd died long ago... wish i had the courage then to take the plunge off those 24 storeys when i was 15. maybe then there'd be peace. maybe then people would look at me differently... but its alot of "maybes". and thinking back, i wouldn't want people to think of me in a way associated with someone who died the tragic death of a person who was wronged and misunderstood. if i could... i would vanish... i'm seriously considering migrating overseas after getting my diplomas... to start a new life... maybe then i'll find the friends who will be there for me and not backstab me given the opportunity...

legendary_slacker was haunted by memories on 8/10/2004 11:45:00 pm.