Sighz... Being seen by pple as nice realli has its disadvantages. Pple tend to tink of u as pussified and all. Wish it din haf to be this way. Giving in too much is detrimental to oneself and to others. Maybe I'm toonice, maybe... I wish I cld be what I used to be last time, wen I could don't give a fuck abt what pple thought abt me. I hate it now tt I haf become so careful with my words and behavior around pple. Well... If this is the way its supposed to be, then let it be, coz nothing I do can change the destiny tt awaits me. But now I'm kinda stressed, so dun mind the vulgarities I may use. I haf warned u. U all can haf fun counting the number of "FUCKS" in my entry if you wan. Its interesting.


(I dun want this to sound like the crap my bro always writes on his blog...) Well, my day started off juz fucking fine. Went to church late though. Din smoke as much as I usually did though. Still sick though. Well... I got thru the day juz fine, going to play pool aft lunch n den went for a walk in PS. Went home to celebrate a realli belated b*day party for me n my bro with my parents and one of my aunts, n Puiyee and Esta too. Later on I went to Puiyee's hse to play dai dee. It was wen I went home den the trouble started. It always starts with one thing. I seriously do not noe wads fucking wrong with bra these days. He goes online the most. If he's home e whole day, he'll be on the internet on his laptop while playing ps2. If he's using at nite, den its most prob he'll use to 3am or more, citing important lecture notes he has to download. But I'm sure we all noe tt its not lecture notes he's d/l. He's more likely playing Trivia on IRC or crapping away on how much of a fucking prick I am to his "Oh-So-Holier-Than-Thou" lifestyle. Fuck tt crap manz. His is juz one fucking stupid facade. Juz like tt stupid BB. Whole day try to fucking act like Jit when all he sounds like is a pussy-whipped ass with no brains and who tinks in terms of a monkey who imitates the actions of the pple around it. What can I say? Monkeys like to imitate, dun they, always trying to be what they can't. Well, back on track now.. Bra's been using the internet for the past few days or more, always at night for God noes how many hrs. And since my dad told us to alternate the days and the times which we use, I was quite royally fucking pissed off when bra refused to let me use the motherfucking internet. Ok, we argued abt it for qte a long time, and he kept using tt ass of a BB's fucked up nonsensical quote "Save it", as well as accusing me of playing the internet for like millenia wen I use it, tt I fucking ripped out the fucking USB plug from his fucking laptop, and connected it to the home pc. Damn was he pissed. He smashed my dad's collection of classical music cds on the floor, and went to his room to fume. I mean like fuck it la. He doesn't wana play fair, so why should I fucking play fair. Fuck it I had fucking enuf of his fucking nonsense. I can't be Mr.Fucking-Coolhead all the time rite? So fuck it. Bra can go shove it if he's not happy abt what I'm writing.


But well, I can make a fucking good guess what he's gonna write on his blog. Let's see... Its gonna start like this : "Ben went to pull the fucking USB internet cable outta my laptop. I mean like is he on PMS or wad? Its so UNFAIR to me that he does it. I mean its like I only used it for 3 or 4 straight nights in a fucking row, so what the fuck's the big deal? He can always use it the next fucking night what. Provided I dun haf any more notes for my lectures to download. And I was so pissed, but I kept a cool head and din do shit. Its like its his fault he goes out so fucking late at night so its like he legitamately lets me use the internet. Ge probably uses the internet to surf porn anyway. So fuck it, take it as if I'm doing him a fucking nice favour by not letting him pollute his already fucking polluted mind anymore. Yeah. I'm God's gift to mankind to save their filthy asses. Whoo!!! And my bloody side-kick's a bloody ass who can't tink of his own original lines to say, except imitate this youth leader called Jit Huih in all he says and does. And oh, did i neglect to mention his name's Ariel, aka BB? I tink its short for BoBo shooter. In Singapore army terms it means ur Pa Jiao, or cannot aim properly, esp wen ur in the fucking toilet taking a leak. Well, oh and yeah, before I end, I'll like to say that I like this girl called Si... wait, was it Ra... No, she is so passe, like a few days ago. I tink its J... no, tt girl was only on my mind for a few days. I guess, if I'm not wrong, her name's Linette. I dunno... It sure a fucking hell's gonna change in another day or so. But gee, I created a new personal record. I FINALLY LIKED A GIRL FOR MORE THAN A FEW DAYS IN A ROW. Its like, wow, one week!!! Amazing. I muz jot tt down in my diary. Well, I'm feeling tired, so I'll go sleep now."
And tts what I tink he's gonna write.


But fuck it manz. We all noe tt he's not on the internet to d/l lecture notes. Its more like he's online to play around, with God noes wad. And fucking hell, does anyone like spends hours everyday d/l lecture notes and doing homework online??? Everyday d/l lecture notes? No fucking way manz. Like tt say if everyone was like tt, all the trees in the world wld be gone in a few days. Well... Tts the way it is with pple who tink the whole fucking world loves them when actually the whole world wld juz love to see them get ass-fucked by reality and left to tink abt how they wld live the rest of their lives. Well, BB's the same, so wad can I say? Monkeys of the same brain swing together... Wait, or was it Birds of a feather, flock together? Well, I, for one, tink monkey is a fucking betta way of describing Bra and BB. Bloody monkeys who wants to be accepted by acting cute and imitating others. Pple may say imitation is the best flattery, but in this case, I say fuck off la. Think manz, think. Be yourself, and limit the monkey acts. We dun live in a fucking big zoo, ya noe? Haf the confidence to be urself, and life ur life being urself, coz one of me and one of you is fucking enuf already. Yeahz. Said my piece, now say urs. Ciao.

legendary_slacker was haunted by memories on 2/02/2004 02:10:00 am.