hehz... another day, another gripe... skipped DEL lecture today. went to the bank and then home to get my bicycle to cycle to kebun baru cc. it was friggin raining. enjoyed it though. qte fun, except tt i removed my mud guard and the rain kept flying into my face and onto the back of my shirt. F**K... why the hell did i remove my mud guard in the first place? sianz.


badminton sukked today... had no morale or the will to play after i saw her like keep tiao-ing me... i dunno why but i get this weird feeling tt all is not well... i haven been talking to her at all now...played badminton like crap... used to be so damn good at the game. and now becoz of wad's been going on due to my problems with her... i've become so affected... and after badminton, i walked with clara to wait with ehr for a cab. and then she was also there. she waved bye to clara, but not to me. i wanted to say "bye", but she turned her back to me. why did things turn out this way? this is so sad. my life doesn't seem too good right now. no matter whether i passed all my module tests or wad, life juz seems so empty when she doesn't respond to me. so depressed over a girl? where's the ben ho of before who didn't give a flying fuck about what happened to him in life? who didn't care about wad other did or thought abt him?


to those responsible for the plight i'm in, i hope you're happy now. you have ruined my life. hope you can live with the knowledge that you ruined someone's perfect life... fuckers... why couldn't you have let me live in peace without spoiling it all for me with your rumours and scandals? does seeing me in emotional hurt and pain make you happy? you sadists. even though i don't show it... the emotional turmoil inside of me is overwhelming me slowly... eating me from within... my inner self crying in darkness, alone and traumatised.

legendary_slacker was haunted by memories on 9/06/2004 11:31:00 pm.